you deserve to smile. this is here for you when you want to laugh again.
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I think it’s funny how if you look at someone’s tumblr you can find out all kinds of stuff about their personality and sometimes they post really insightful things and you see that they actually have a brain and emotions, but then you go back to school on Monday where everyone has to pretend that they don’t care and don’t give a shit about anything.
Moving
Twenty years have passed and my life is far from stationary. I move a lot more than the average Joe and each time it is overwhelming. Of all times I would certainly say this may be the most nerve wracking. Maybe it’s the process of growing up and the fact that reality has dawned on me, but it finally feels like I am entering the adult world. For the first time in my life I will be away from my mom and family who I have lived practically my entire life with. College was a slight look into reality, living in San Diego, but that was a simple drive home. I’ve never known anything else and my emotions are quite mixed. On one hand this is such a beautiful opportunity. Moving there I will be able to finish school successfully and stress free, I have work lined up and a job where I will be making fifteen dollars an hour and tips, I will be living rent free until I am settled and on my feet, I have a completely clean slate with no baggage, I finally get to live with my dad, my best friend will shortly be arriving so I have a companion, and I will be living in the most beautiful place on earth. After typing that it made me that much more thankful, but I am going to miss my family and the certainty of life. It’s weird reaching out of your comfort zone, especially when it is such a drastic distance. No longer am I a quick drive from home, but a five hour and quite costly plane ride. Additionally, there are so many goodbyes I will never share and even more words I will never get to say. I guess it’s simple to say that if it mattered as much to me as it did them then things would certainly be a lot different. In all of my times of moving states I have never had to leave someone I still loved. It’s a pity and a shame that I still care, and what hurts more is the fact that you didn’t even have the decency to see me. It seems like after all this time I would have meant a little more to you. Who was I, better yet, who am I kidding? Things never change. It still makes me question myself and always wonder what I did wrong. That’s the one thing I wish everyone I’ve ever parted ways with would tell me so I could better myself. Mehh. Overall, I am really glad for a fresh start. Transitions may be hard and I will miss many dearly, but I am glad to actually grow up and out of California. It’s nice to feel older and actually have my head on right. It takes a lot to step out of your comfort zone and venture of alone in the world. I am so thankful to have this opportunity too.
I still check on you.
No matter what happened between us, or how long its been since we last talked, I still care, I wanna know you’re doing and feeling. I don’t stalk you but just enough to know you’re okay because you’re still that person I miss and the person who will always be in my heart.
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